Indivisible love-awareness

I have been granted the most incredible opportunity to get to know awareness. This last week I had an accident which resulted in a multiple fracture in my leg and a major operation. I am left on crutches for 8 weeks, unable to be independent in my day-to-day living, and with severe pain as I learn to walk again.

It really has been a gift. In the mist of the most intense pain it was obvious that the basis of my experience was totally stable, unchanging, crystal clear and open; my basic well-being unwavering.

In the mist of self-pity, frustration, sadness and exhaustion the relief of crystal clear awareness is immediate. Each changing experience is an opportunity to rest in indestructible clarity and sky-like openness with everything as it is, moment by moment.

It is beautifully confirming to experience the immediacy of relief, and the total transformation of confused self-pity to compassion for all beings in the simple recognition of the indivisible basic state. We see nothing needs to be avoided. Nothing affects the basic state. When nothing is avoided, we can feel everything fully, and feel the immense confusion and suffering of all beings. In an instant, whoosh, self-focus dissolves into love for all.

What a blessing this christmas to be getting to know true compassion rather than reifying a self-focused personal identity that needs to control the world in order to be ok.

I am so very grateful. With love to all,

Kat